Am I?
Tuesday, April 26, 2011 at1:57 AM
Pondering over and over again.
At first thought I was over the moon.
At second thought, here comes anxious.
Third, self assurance. Is this what I want?
Fourth, am I able to cope with retail line again? Meddling with sales again?
Sigh.. The thought of meeting new people... The thought of being the 'new girl'.. I really don't like:(
Come to think of it.. I'm not even being interviewed yet. What's there to worry yet? Ha-haaaa :/
It's Chanel btw.. This Friday..
Animal face painting
Tuesday, April 19, 2011 at11:48 AM
This is my new pet, called furry.
:) love how it looked furry at the cheek area.. Though I know there are many rooms for improvements. But pardon me for this is my first try. ;)
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Thursday, April 7, 2011 at2:22 PM
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time
at2:03 PM
3 and a half years.
meant nothing at all?
You sure?
when too much is no good.
at1:58 PM
I don't know, i suspect i have split personality.
during the day and night.
in the day i can tell myself to stop, to move on, to let go.
but when its in the night. i cant do it.
and when i realised, i have made people around me worried.
sigh. i dont want this either, but i cant control myself.
i don't expect or need other people's attention, only yours.
You mean so much to me, despite all...
Sigh... Oh, tell what am i supposed to do now.......
because they don't know.. :'(
I don't want to....
Tuesday, April 5, 2011 at11:40 AM
I really don't want to.... :(
L O S T
Saturday, April 2, 2011 at11:59 PM
Cb this hot weather is making things worst! I feel very very very frustrated. Like seriously, whats happening? Ya right, tell me I'm taking things for granted. Tell me I'm the absurd one. Tell me I'm the ridiculous one. Tell me I'm the one who screwed it up. And you know what? I hate this stubborn, strong headed attitude of mine.
I know I have to do sthg but I can't bring myself to give in. I can't bring myself to accept I'm in the wrong.
Cb. Since young, my mom my dad my sister THEY ALL GIVE IN TO ME BIG TIME! I just can't do it:(
Argh! Like seriously my ego is killing meeee. Slowly.. It's the same wherever I go.. Sigh... I wish I'm just one dumb girl and fullstop.
Sigh.. Sucks to be me..
