perhaps its true?

Thursday, May 20, 2010 at5:01 PM

another month to go.
how's my mood?
needless to say.
mm, sometimes being understanding isn't easy.
my mind says this, but my heart says that.

i have to remind myself time and again..

it isn't easy, trust me.

Can you see the white flag above me?

Sunday, May 16, 2010 at1:18 AM

because i gave up to you, life.
i no longer want to control you, because u overtook me.
you choose your own way, im not gonna obstruct u.
perhaps, what's given there is the right decision...

because i won't.

Monday, May 3, 2010 at5:21 PM

don't need you to do so because you know what's going on.
among all, your's was the one i least expected most.
though it was of the same thing, its written clear enough that it was nothing but hypocrite.
so just jolly well don't waste the energy.

i doubt you have anyone true though.
sick of ur dramas, sick of you and everything.

people tell lies...
white lies to make you feel at ease.
lies which made ppl cry.
lies which broke people's heart.
lies which perhaps make ppl happy to deceive themselves.

i dont know which category you fall into. but, i don't appreciate whatever shit you have given me.
seriously, just back off.

because i know this ain't true at all.
and this is no longer in my dictionary.
I gave up hope and no longer keen anymore.
Doesnt matter anymore...


one by one, people steps into your life unknowingly.
one by one, people leaves you.
Well, i wish you good, I wish you all the best...
go ahead.
you need not show me how happy you are, because i won't feel a single prick.

So ya, it was all a beautiful nightmare.
bye.

how now?

Sunday, May 2, 2010 at3:40 AM

Perhaps you are clear of what you have said, but i doubt you thought before u spoke.
and im hurt.
i don't care if i have to hang the damn bloody phone if that makes ur blood boils or not.
all i know is, i think it would be better to hang the phone before I start saying things i would regret.
If you are raging inside, this would at least brighten me cause I know you do care.
But are we being child-like in the first place?
Arguing over trivial matters which aint suppose to be?
I said i don't wanna throw my temper when you are having ur offs. I know you wanna enjoy, but, for the entire whole day, your calls were all in a rush to hang.
You don't know because you didn't realise until I tell you.
What if I don't? You will never understand, don't you?

i don't wanna say anymore.
how long can this last?
everytime we argue, you will bring up the damn bloody past.
just kill me la huh. (sometimes i wonder how ppl got the courage to even commit suicide. sibei zai.)
tired of everything.
fuck it seriously.

im left with nothing now.
so empty, and do you even care?

tmr's the 3rd, would there be wishes from the ones i expected?
sighh~~~